Donowatoso

a little time to post..

2012-01-22T07:57:00.004+08:00

it's morning here, and nobody else is awake yet and so i am glad. and oh, it's starting to rain! that's even better...

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since my last post, i've continued with the self portrait and this is how the completed painting looks:

i've tried to fit in whatever time i have to do a little bit of painting after work or during the weekends. i managed to do so for this self portrait.

then, i proceeded with another, but an imagined person and here's the progress so far:

initial sketch

2nd sitting

i'm not sure when will this ever be finished...apart from the 'time' factor, i had to move the easel away from the toilet studio back to my own room and then back to the toilet studio again and back again to my own room....this nomadic studio situation isn't helping...

hope i'll be able to find a fixed place to paint soon...

from then to now

2011-12-12T19:50:00.002+08:00

it's been a while since i last posted anything illustrative...
it's been a while since i last have more then 2 comments...
for my visitors may not be used to my current state of expression...
this progression (or perhaps, considered deterioration to most) from being cute to whimsical,
from whimsical to melancholic, from melancholic to darker leanings...and from darker leanings to another struggle of being truthful...no matter how ugly the truth is...
when will i ever find the fit?

although i'm still struggling
i'm willing to continue with it
be persistent, at my most positive
hoping someday
the truth can be more beautifully expressed, conveyed...
although the sentence :What is it all for? still lingers
i shall try to stand up and take the brush and learn again
until i cannot take the falls any longer...

but i hope you'll bear with me
and come back to visit me every now and then
that perhaps someday
when you visit me again
i'll be better in my paintings
or perhaps you'll be able to understand then,
what i've been trying to express now
during my transitional state...

Self study

2011-11-26T21:18:00.002+08:00

observing one self
is a very humbling experience...

trying my best to not cover my flaws
trying to see who i really am..
be honest to how i really feel...

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oil sketch on board

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The few words that hold the whole para...

2011-11-20T00:26:00.009+08:00

today, is a memorable day
for the first time, one of my heels gave way while i was finding my way to an art gallery
and you know what?

it decided to give way right infront of an expensive boutique. i looked around frantically for some other 'cheaper' looking boutiques but unfortunately, none was in sight...

i had no choice but to limp right up to the boutique and all they have are heels that are so high that looking at them was enough to cause a recurrence of slip disc.

but i had no choice, and there goes enough of money to buy a few more tubes of oil paints...for a pair of heels that i would never ever consider buying under normal circumstances.

but then again, i should be really thankful that there WAS a boutique for me to get into right in front of me or else i would have to discard the other heel and walk barefooted back to a shopping complex a few blocks away where my car was parked and i wouldn't have continued my journey to the art gallery after that, and i would never have viewed a meaningful art exhibition by an amazing artist. yes, i'm truly blessed.

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God must still want me to be inspired....

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and therefore...a quick oil sketch before dinner the next night...

Painting in progress

2011-11-13T21:09:00.001+08:00

worked on this a little further...

A glimpse of WIP

2011-11-06T09:59:00.004+08:00

a painting in progress, in my 'studio' (which is the toilet)....

this took me about 5 hours since lunch time yesterday just to reach this stage. although this is my first time painting this big, i didn't expect it to take that long...continued after dinner for a few more hours...and well, will continue again today..i just hope i won't spoil it in the process...

i'm so 'groggy' today...where's my coffee?

update:

i spoiled it....

gold

2011-10-26T20:21:00.003+08:00

oil on wood board

someday you will understand

2011-10-23T23:27:00.000+08:00

S.O.S

2011-09-19T06:48:00.002+08:00

i wake up early every morning
ample time to get prepared to go to the office
but what would i rather do?

paint a little bit more...
analyse a little bit more...
study inspirational works a little bit more
till i'm always a few minutes late to work

for the past few months
if you noticed
i've been posting a little more often than last year
that's a sign...
but what will i do this time?
what should i do?

why must they still force me to stay
when i so want to run away?

why must they force me to commit?
when i'm not even ready
i'll never be ready for anything
except for the sake of art...

how i wish for the opportunity to be mentored, to be guided
by a wise painter...

all my postings...
they are just my S.O.S....

Wish

2011-09-16T21:31:00.005+08:00

i have a secret wish..
that someday,
a great painter that i admire
will offer himself
to be my art mentor
and take me away
from what i'm not meant to do...
before it's too late...

My Nephews

2011-09-15T20:37:00.002+08:00

I am a proud aunt of 3 nephews :) 2 are already teenagers and the littlest is only 6years old.

recently my eldest nephew Jeff and his team (Positive Crew - how cool is that :D)won 3rd prize in a yearly talent competition, which is quite a big thing for teens here in Malaysia.

check them out here!

I'm so proud of his determination. Elvis, my 2nd nephew, Jeff's younger brother is also really quite good in singing and i'm sure someday he'll be showing off on stage with his singing skills! He's quite handsome too ;) and tall. Both my nephews are taller than i - in fact, i think i'm the shortest in the family - if you don't count the 6 year old :D

My littlest nephew Rufus, their youngest brother is a very serious little guy :D he's very proper and i wonder if someday he'll be a top scholar :D i don't have a photo of him in this laptop that i'm using...i'll show him to you guys someday.

sigh...it seems like it was just yesterday that they were still little and naughty and jumping and climbing around like monkeys! I missed those years but i do look forward to their future which i pray will turn out to be what they hoped and worked for.

i love you nephews!

eye bags

2011-09-05T06:32:00.003+08:00

this is just an exercise before bedtime last night.

oil on cake base.

i'm obsessed with eye bags...

untitled 2011

2011-09-01T16:56:00.006+08:00

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oil on wood
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the eyes

2011-08-20T22:42:00.003+08:00

a face is just a face if there is no life in the eyes...

how i admire those great painters
who are able to convey emotions with just a few dabs of paint to indicate the eye area.

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oil on MDF board
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what is it all for?

2011-08-16T20:39:00.003+08:00

sometimes, i wonder what is it all for?

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oil on board. writing in pastel.
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when words fail..

2011-08-07T16:38:00.002+08:00

oil on MDF board

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when all words fail...
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first time with clay

2011-08-01T20:37:00.005+08:00

i happen to be at the sculpting section of the art store that i frequent for my painting supplies yesterday, and thought "why not?"

i have no idea how to go about it but well, a face emerged!
the clay dried so fast that it was really hard to knead them into places...or maybe i didin't knead them the right way?.

how i wish i could just fly out of Malaysia and take a professional course on sculpting.

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another photo of previous painting, but now taken with a proper camera and not a phone camera...

another face

2011-07-25T22:44:00.003+08:00

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oil on board
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smoking again

2011-07-19T22:08:00.003+08:00

i need to smoke every now and then
and i think it shows even in my works.

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oil on board
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persistence

2011-07-17T07:59:00.003+08:00

there are signs of recurrence..
for a few weeks now, i could feel the strain on my back and slight tingling sensation on my right leg again...
conveniently, my painting sessions were blamed by others..

but instead of avoiding the bathroom yesterday (where i paint...don't worry, this is an unused spare bathroom) i dragged myself in and spent a few hours at the easel painting yet another visitor of my imaginary world...she must have arranged for an appointment with me earlier on for all i wanted to do is to paint...

and although my back felt worse after painting, my spirit was soothed and calmed...and with that, who could tell that i was actually in pain?

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oil on board
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Possession

2011-07-11T19:26:00.002+08:00

i wonder sometimes
if the faces that i've painted
had ever lived

i'd like to believe
they must have existed
somewhere...
sometime...

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oil on board
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the return of the side view, high-nosed woman

2011-07-10T08:53:00.003+08:00

does she not look familiar? she used to appear in my sketches on corner of my books, memo pads, etc...she was never in oil...

last night, i decided to give her a more permanent place...oil on board.

i hope she'll like her new status...and i wonder if you like it too?

A painting on a Tuesday night

2011-07-07T22:59:00.002+08:00

a bit dark...

2011-06-26T19:45:00.002+08:00

Between Cute-ism and Skilled-ism

2011-06-19T07:45:00.007+08:00

top: Oil on wood
bottom: Oil on canvas

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i went to a place yesterday, a place i was looking forward to go to, hoping to see inspiring works....
but all i could see,
is social-ism and
cute-ism without depth...
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feeling dissapointed,
i went to another floor where a pop art gallery is situated
and there were many paintings that i was attracted to
the kind that i wish i could do.

as i browse along the gallery's wall, i noticed a few familiar modern paintings
and asked the gallery owner if these are original works
he told me that they are reproductions...

why do these artists choose to reproduce other artists' works?
look at their skills. there are 'educated' strokes there...
they are world apart from those that i saw at the art and craft fair.
they could easily paint something beautiful of their own with such skills.

again, i walked out of the gallery, dissapointed...and disturbed...

how then, could i, an 'uneducated' artist wannabe (aging as well), make it in the world of 'cute-ism' and 'popular-ism' and 'fashion-ism', when even skillfull artists makes a living by becoming 'copy' artists...

wasting paint

2011-06-12T21:50:00.004+08:00

i'm such a messed up person...the one with the red thingy thing was actually a big mistake but i couldn't just waste the whole MDF board so i just continued with it and wasted a few more hours of my life...

imaginary portrait

2011-05-14T21:57:00.003+08:00

Self Portrait

2011-04-25T04:24:00.004+08:00

Oil on some kind of board

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yesterday's painting

2011-04-18T06:59:00.002+08:00

oil on unprimed plywood..

the 4th of 2011

2011-04-08T21:56:00.006+08:00

do click on the photo to have a clearer look of this painting...another badly painted painting...the 4th for 2011...

Cornered

2010-09-20T06:43:00.004+08:00

green shadows

2010-08-09T21:52:00.004+08:00

poetry without words...my only reason in painting still life...

pearl

2010-08-03T06:47:00.002+08:00

oil on canvas pad...work in progress or finished....it depends.
another imaginary person, trying to paint like how i sketch.

The new old

2010-07-24T21:25:00.003+08:00

while waiting for my 'base' on the canvas to dry, i noticed this little drawing i did sometime ago while i was driving to work one morning..and decided to modify it....

and here you are, the modified version, roughed in with pastels....

hope you'll bear with me, my transitioning period...in the world of painting (oil), i'm still a toddler....

if i'm not meant to reach the 'maturity' stage of painting...i hope God will give me the strength to face the fact while dreams passes me by.....

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late to work....

2010-07-14T07:09:00.001+08:00

tones

2010-07-04T08:08:00.003+08:00

oil on canvas pad

here, i am just showing the eyes part of my painting. Not on purpose but i have accidentally deleted the full photo i've taken and i'm too lazy to retake now :) It is a full potrait of Madame Sadayako, based on an old black and white photo from the book of the same name.

A Noh Lady

2010-06-20T09:34:00.003+08:00

Oil on canvas pad...16in x 20in
From my imagination....but inspired by Noh masks
even in oil painting, i'm still 'illustrative'...i'm not sure if that is good or bad....

back again...no new blog

2010-06-04T21:55:00.003+08:00

It's been a while...yes, i'm trying again...

Transitioning....

2010-03-22T22:16:00.005+08:00

darkness so bright

2009-11-27T18:03:00.001+08:00

Gaze 2009

2009-10-17T22:21:00.002+08:00

it is when i'm not searching for You that i needed You the most....

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2009-10-08T12:39:00.006+08:00

how long?

2009-09-13T09:28:00.002+08:00

this is my 5th month back in the office life...

Revelation

2009-08-02T10:37:00.004+08:00

sometimes, a partly hidden face tells more. do you not agree?

worn...for IF

2009-06-27T06:53:00.002+08:00

fishes that fly,
fishes that glow,
vincent is seeing things
and so am i....

perhaps, we should take a seat
worn out by reality
in need of some peace
and a little dream
of magical things
like fishes that fly
and fishes that glow...

Unfold....

2009-06-14T21:20:00.003+08:00

you'll never know
what love will unfold....

rare, dreamy sunday...

2009-06-07T17:33:00.003+08:00

this morning has been a rarity
especially since i started work again...
so it was 'jealously' treasured...

i don't know....

2009-06-05T22:40:00.000+08:00

one afternoon, in the car, with pastels i drew.....

2009-05-16T22:04:00.003+08:00

rough paint sketch

2009-04-12T23:12:00.003+08:00

this is just a paint sketch...i've decided to use acrylic even for sketching as often as possible....

The Goth in me

2009-03-19T10:19:00.002+08:00

2009 seemed to be a rather 'attempting' year for me so far. First attempts in painting - the way i see them in my mind/heart - more and more like how i illustrate/sketch. Though i have not achieved perfect congruence (can i use it this way, i wonder?) but it's getting there, despite internal turbulence along the way, i have experienced growth. And perhaps now you know why i'm such an unhappy person :) incongruency - art-wise....

Incongruency - my life too...how contradicting it is, to say all these, when i will be going back to office life this April.

Finding solace in Forest...

2009-03-09T19:47:00.004+08:00

it's almost like a baby grabbing on to her mother's apron...i'm not willing to let go....but those choices given to me!....
Save Me! Save Me! from the impending cold office life...

(it was raining outside while i was painting this....thank you for such moments...)
acrylic on canvas (A4 size)

For the first time....

2009-03-07T23:09:00.004+08:00

acrylic on canvas

Today, I'm happy to say that, I've managed to paint (and not illustrate) something that looks almost like what i've visualized in my heart and mind. But I wonder if I'll still be happy with it after 3 days?

Breezy for IF

2009-03-01T09:10:00.002+08:00

it's been hundreds of years since i last participated, but here comes this 'breezy' illo...it was a bit chilly and breezy where i was when i did this illo, so, i gave her a scarf...my favourite one too :)

Validation

2009-02-27T23:51:00.003+08:00

Today, the counselling lecturer shared this wonderful short film with the class. Maybe some of you have seen it but well, if you haven't, enjoy!

I googled for it and found it on youtube

First 2009 painting

2009-02-09T19:36:00.004+08:00

Biscuit Woman

(acrylic on wood - first attempt on wood and first 2009 painting)

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Hi everyone, I'm back again. Thank you so much for the comments and emails. Thank you!

I've been away, recuperating after my slip disc operation (I collapsed a few days after my Dec post). Spent my Christmas in the hospital. What a way to spend Christmas right? But well, it was a very meaningful one for me for many reasons and in some ways, glad that it happened during Christmas time. Now I am so much better and have started driving a bit this week. It's such a joyful thing to be able to drive and be independent again!

Many came to visit during my stay in the hospital and I would like to thank all of them, especially so to my friend since standard one who came almost everyday with her boyfriend. I was so touched and so very thankful for their presence! Cecilia and Sean, thank you so much! You guys made me laughed so much that the doc decided to kick me out earlier than planned! ;)

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I've decided to continue with this blog. A different blog will not make any difference to how I write or feel.....

That's one decision made.....now, I have another to make.....

Will be back soon....

2009-02-05T21:22:00.004+08:00

coming back soon...

rays and wind....

2008-12-01T22:57:00.007+08:00

I just came back Sunday from a much needed 3 day silent retreat at a beautiful place....
a place situated right in the middle of a forest...
the above photos were taken on my last day of retreat...
I'm no photographer but really glad to be able to capture those rays,
to be standing there at the right time....
so beautiful...
God's works are!
Hope you will enjoy these photos....

Did this dandelion illustration to accompany Jennifer's (J R Poulter) poem, Dandelion Down....
started sketching while waiting to depart from church to the retreat place...continued during one of my break time....and finished it Sunday evening.....
thanks Jennifer for inviting me to illustrate for your poem.

You can read this poem and many others here.

i still cannot decide...

strays....

2008-10-07T13:45:00.004+08:00

some sketches..
while i contemplate on the fate of this blog...
thanks Anna and Shayla :)

What comes freely....

2008-10-03T00:28:00.002+08:00

i have allowed myself to stray again today
should be illustrating something else
but when i woke up this morning
i was determined
to allow myself to be myself...
and let the hand express itself freely today...
and so,
here she is....
colour pencil, pastel and a bit of digital dots for the flowers on her hair....
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I really feel that i should start afresh again...
should i start a new blog?
There are too many sadness here...
i'm sorry that I've been a very 'melancholic' blogger....
but this is how i really am...
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one evening on the Federal Highway, Kuala Lumpur

2008-09-24T09:07:00.002+08:00

The rain brought me back today...

2008-09-15T19:20:00.003+08:00

the rain today
brought me back here...

till we next meet......

2008-07-31T22:05:00.004+08:00

i don't know what to do, my dear friends...
neither here nor there am i...

so, i'll take a little break
and decide what to do later....

thank you my friends, for always being there...
Hugs!

untitled failure.....

2008-07-28T16:55:00.004+08:00

i don't know why should i continue...
fooling myself....
perhaps, a goodbye for this blog is coming soon.....

unfinished.....

2008-07-15T22:24:00.004+08:00

how should i continue?

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2008-06-30T14:22:00.005+08:00

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Hoard for IF - repost

2008-06-20T21:36:00.004+08:00

close friends and family know that i'm a woman that hoards
vintage/antique stuff like old books, posters, coloured bottles/glasses, etc...
because I really, really like such things...
because of this, they appear in my sketches/illustrations as well :)

Hope you like this sketch...

a sketch for nothing...

2008-06-17T21:38:00.003+08:00

well...just a sketch...first time doing the hair this way...

organising thoughts in black and white....

2008-06-12T08:01:00.002+08:00

i went back late last night....after class
i did stray a bit again, but this time, not as much as i did in the previous lecture...
will share that stray with you another day...
but last night,
i couldn't sleep...till almost 2am...
so i sat there in the hall, taking photos of items on my desk...
while trying not to think of certain matters
some of the past that has resurfaced, in some ways...
some of the present, that i'm in doubt of still...
and off course, some of the future...
that seemed rather 'unpromising' as far as i'm concerned...
and i finally got to bed and slept off....
when suddenly, my mobile rang...it was a message tone...
a message from a friend at 4am...
that gave me a shocking news...
of which i never thought would happen to him...although there were signs already, but still i wasn't expecting the news i got....
no, it's not death...but, it is death in some ways...a very heart wrenching one...
and then, i couldn't get back to sleep until after a while...
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i know this post seemed to be hanging...
i guess, i'm just reorganizing my thoughts
in black and white for now...

Back to straying...

2008-06-08T21:32:00.003+08:00

i was in class the other evening...
listening to the lecture...
on ADHD...
the lecturer's voice was so soothing...
so gentle...
that it lulled me to another world....
and when i 'came back' to class
a 'visitor'
appeared
on my notes....
peeking cheekily
over the texts
perhaps
she's wondering too,
how did she arrive there...
right in between paragraphs....

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perhaps, i too, have a bit of a problem here....
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Re-Post for IF's Forgotten...

2008-06-08T20:00:00.004+08:00

they shall not be forgotten....

for the victims of the recent earthquake in China....

for the victims of the recent earthquake in China.....

2008-06-02T19:03:00.007+08:00

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In need of a brighter place....

2008-05-19T16:15:00.003+08:00

it's been a little dark in my world lately...
perhaps, i should start looking for another place to stay
and rent out or sell my own apartment...
....

how i long for windows...
those that runs from floor to ceiling kind....
oh, how i long for those....

when it is bright and sunny
I will put empty wine bottles, perfume bottles even,
on the floor and let the beam shines through them

when it rains
i'll just sit by it
with a mug of hot coffee
and let the shadows from the raindrops on the window pane
run down my face...

oh, how i long for those windows...

finally....the shop is up....

2008-05-13T21:44:00.003+08:00

My shop is up :)
one for now....will add more later...
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a mixture of past and present...

2008-05-01T01:16:00.005+08:00

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Excuse me today....

2008-04-21T20:17:00.004+08:00

a little blue today...

(a song i like very much, introduced to me by a friend, that i found on youtube...)

If my heart insists....

2008-04-17T21:23:00.004+08:00

i should be giving something else my full attention,
at least until next Wednesday
but.....
well, i just have to release this...

Save for IF

2008-04-07T18:42:00.004+08:00

it's a rough and quick one, this one...hope you don't mind my handwriting..
for IF and for those of us who are still very young at heart :)
(do click on the image to have a larger view)

Antique-ly Modern?

2008-04-03T11:20:00.005+08:00

it is odd...
i don't really know how to read chinese but, most of the books on my table
are in chinese, but what's even more odd is that, i do understand them...most of the time...
and i teach sunday class in Mandarin too...
....
I've re-positioned my work area again...
I'm quite happy with it this time...
only, maybe it's a bit too dark...
i think i need a table lamp with white lighting :)

and this, is my 2nd illustration since re-positioning...

Homage...IF

2008-03-31T14:27:00.004+08:00

She smiles
in crowded places now
but when nobody is in sight
and when alone at night
she writes tributes
she writes homages
of the love that did not survive
and sends them up
to the stars
in the sky...
before whispering
goodnight
to the shadows
of her past....

It takes time....

2008-03-24T20:15:00.006+08:00

I cannot believe still
that I have left
and already walking the opposite direction
....
i guess it takes time
...
it is time to part the curtains
so that the beams can come in
and chase
my 'last-nights' away...

working on an illustration.....

2008-03-22T09:18:00.003+08:00

A peeky of what is to come....

Farewell to Corporate World...

2008-03-19T23:26:00.004+08:00

This is what i did a few years ago...
she is leaving...
going somewhere...

somewhere nobody knows,
not even herself...
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it is time for another chapter of my life....

a totally un-corporate chapter of my life...
to be myself...
and to try to live a more meaningful life...

will you accompany me?

Gaze/Garden for IF

2008-03-08T07:36:00.003+08:00

when i saw this week's topic, i immediately thought of this...
posted this before but not in IF....

looking for a mentor...

2008-02-26T20:22:00.006+08:00

i have not forgotten
this other part of me
or
maybe
this is me
entirely
only
it is
still
a
repressed
me
wanting
to
be
free
.
I am still looking
for the key...
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gazing...

2008-02-17T21:44:00.004+08:00

choose...wisely

2008-02-11T20:47:00.001+08:00

so many perfumes
so many different types
of expensive fragrances...
so many to choose
but what is most important
is
to know
the best perfume
in this world
is
the smell of love
that was shared
that was given
that was expressed...

an early valentine wish to all of you :)

Blanket....for IF

2008-02-03T19:04:00.000+08:00

Mrs OddChin (was Mrs BigMouth a few years ago before her remarriage) and
Mrs BigHead are rivals in the community sewing class...
Usually, Mrs BigHead's creations are much better, much finer compared to Mrs OddChin's.

One day, however, the class were given a project
to sew the best blanket they can think of
and the grand prize is a Cintiq Tablet
(till today, it still remains a mystery, why they choose to give away an illustrating tool in a sewing class.....hmmmmm)
And so, both Mrs OddChin and Mrs BigHead went home and sewed and sewed and stitched and stitched....from morning till night.
Mrs BigHead was very confident that she will win, knowing that all these while, her works are better then Mrs OddChin....

But

what a surprise she had on the day of submission!
Out, from Mrs OddChin's bag, came the most BEAUTIFUL TINIEST patchwork blanket ever seen in the world!

It was so beautiful, so fine, so exquisite, so magical...that it seemed to emit a golden glow!

so

Mrs OddChin was announced the winner! (and brought the Cintiq home to collect dust)

Mrs BigHead were no longer seen in the class after that day....and was very soon forgotten..

The End

(looks like i really do have time today! :D)

Leaving....to stay on....

2008-02-01T22:30:00.001+08:00

(I've posted this sketch before...sorry...i don't have time to even sketch lately..)

Have I shared with you how i became a Graphic Designer,

from a Private Secretary? Maybe later….
Have I shared with you how I started illustrating? (not designing)…

maybe later…
But I would like to share with you now

that i have finally handed in my resignation letter last week....

after almost 8 years....

I think i am a late starter...
I wouldn't say 'late bloomer'
because, I don't think I've really bloomed - art-wise i mean...

In fact, I don't really know if I've come to an ending or the beginning...

why God choose to let you experience certain things only at a certain time
answer your prayer at a certain time...if at all, if that is also His will....
I can only quote my father's favourite phrase:
G.O.K - God only knows...
but I guess, we will all know why,
maybe soon, maybe very much later...but we will definitely realize someday,
it is only a matter of time...
and i'd like to believe that it is for our own good...if it is not answered…
it might take us some time
to accept
especially if it is something that you are so passionate about...
and at this point,
I still do not know if my will is His will…..
And if it is not,
I do not know if I can handle it
Seeing dreams of others realize
While I am still struggling….to improve…

I received this email this morning from a fellow colleague from a subsidiary in another state, after she received the news of my resignation….

"Hi Constance,

Remember I wanted to ask you something on Thursday? Well, I know that you are very busy these two months, trying to clear your workload but if you have the time, can you please draw a "cartoon" pic of me .... and if you have the time, of MR Z and MR J too?

If you don't have the time to do so before you leave M, you can do it AFTER you leave the company. It's not urgent.

This is so that I can look at the pic years from now and remember you (ha!)

Thanks :-) R"

It is a very simple request, but still simple words means much more to me than flowery ones…
It almost brought tears to my eyes…not only because of this request, but for the memories that came flowing back to me of my earlier days with the Group….those great bosses I’ve worked with, who gave me the opportunity, the chance….crazy workmates of past and present….

But it is time to leave….

to give myself a breather,
and although I will be very much poorer…
and friends and relatives might not understand,
I hope I will be happier….

I’ve not sing for a long time
I think today, I will sing again
in the shower :)

2nd oil painting - work in progress

2008-01-05T22:35:00.001+08:00

a little peek
of my 2nd oil painting in progress...very early stage this is...

I don't usually do this, posting work in progress...
but I guess
I'm a little nervous
tomorrow,
I'll be teaching again
after a year's break...
and this time,
it will be older kids....
oh my goodness...

Blessed Christmas and First Oil Painting....

2007-12-22T20:49:00.000+08:00

my very FIRST oil painting....still very wet...will add more details on the cheongsam later...
......

It's so fast...
time flies
Another Christmas...
Another year...

Have a Blessed Christmas my dear friends
Hugs....

shadows...on a Sunday morning...

2007-12-09T19:58:00.001+08:00

Excess....

2007-12-01T17:43:00.001+08:00

I had a bit of time today to sketch something for a friend...
but as usual, I strayed...
and hence....this piece....

an ex-geisha, with an odd nose....
due to excessive plastic surgery :)

of Shuku and of my brother...

2007-11-18T20:43:00.000+08:00

It's been a little while...it is already November

How have you been? How was your September and October?

I've been tied up with work...unless i resign, i think my posts will be getting more and more irregular....although I have not been visiting my blog friends as often as I used to, they remain still very much in my thoughts....

I had a very memorable end to my September, with my meeting up with another fellow Malaysian blogger - Shuku! :)
Shuku is a member of The Young KL Singers. Click HERE to know more of YKLS.
I went with my friend Jane, to watch the choir's 5th anniversary concert and we were both really impressed! They sang 17 songs selected from their many performances since 2002 and oh my favourite for the evening - Autumn Leaves (Lyrics by Jacques Prevert & Johnny Mercer)! That was really enchanting....And all the others are wonderful!
Shuku is really a very gifted person. An ex-nurse (am I right shuku?), she can draw, create and sew costumes, play the piano, sing - she has a very beautiful voice! And i think she's also looking into getting her first book published! Oh my! I'm sulking now ;) because, whenever I offer to sing to my friends, they will beg very hard that I don't! :D so, all that I am allowed to do is to just shut my mouth and 'wriggle' my ears....

Well, I'm really glad to have finally met Shuku :) and will forgive her for being too gifted!
................

And that was the good part of my September.....
What about October?

My brother Victor released his very first English album - Need U Most...
It is a compilation of some popular English songs from the 70's till the 90's...
I'm really proud of him!

To know more about this album or his other mandarin releases,
do visit Here, Here and Here...

And before I leave again...here's another sketch that I did more than 2 months ago, when I suddenly woke up at 3am....it is a sketch of my cabinet in the hall area...
Can you see Marjorie's print there?
Good night everyone....

superstition for IF

2007-11-17T14:14:00.000+08:00

she blinks and blinks and blinks

her eyes

saying his name with every blink

believing earnestly

he will appear right in front of her

after her hundreth blink

on his knees he will be

proposing with a diamond wedding ring!

...................

coming back in a while.....

2007-10-31T07:01:00.000+08:00

....coming back in a while.....

(Next: On Shuku and also of Victor Wong, my er ger's latest album, his first English album...)

....does it really matter?

2007-09-08T13:13:00.000+08:00

...that it is unfinished?
...that this is for nothing?
that this if for free?
...that it is out of unexplainable reason
that this is so...
that this is being drawn...
to be shared
just
like
that
and
ends
at
that

untitled

2007-09-02T21:38:00.001+08:00

alphabets for IF

2007-09-01T21:03:00.000+08:00

Till next we meet, my dear friends :)

2007-08-10T21:40:00.000+08:00

one night
some months ago
I chanced upon this
and was so touched
by both the beauty of this piece as well as the pianist's expression....

I thought I'd like to share this someday here...
and so, here it is tonight...

.......