Monday, April 08, 2013

the wedding tea ceremony tea-set

oil on canvas pad. a study of the wedding tea ceremony tea set my parents used during their wedding 44 years ago. I've learnt a lot from this study. it was a gruelling first few hours, and towards the last one hour, i felt it looked so 'confined' so 'rigid' that i said to myself: what the heck, just do it the way i like it! so this is the way i like it, just focusing on what i feel is important and nothing clearly defined unless you look at it as a whole painting. it's tough to be a self-taught. Today will be my last day to experiment with painting - if i feel alright enough, as i'll be going back to the office tomorrow. but i think i'd better rest today. i do not want another re-relapse so soon!

Wednesday, April 03, 2013

what happened in March

I had a memorable March. i collapsed again and was hospitalised, went for operation, etc..but on the positive side, i get to draw without guilt. physically, i was weak but spiritually i was hopeful - looking forward to the opportunity to draw, to explore. it is ironic that now, physically, i've improved slightly but as the day to return to the office draws nearer and nearer, my spirit becomes lower and lower. i'm going to have a talk with my CEO tomorrow over the phone, to discuss on my return, but i dread it because i know i'm going to be untruthful...i've delayed the call for 2 days now but i know i have to make it. I know that i'm going to say yes, i'm returning on a certain date, etc, etc...i'm only saying and doing it out of gratitude. but i know what the real answer is deep inside.... well, above are some of the drawings, sketches, illustration done during my stay in the hospital, during my recovery period at home (which is still on-going).