life is not meaningless
but what is meaningful
is far and few in between
i've received my fair share of material rewards:
money, titles, recognition in form of words, etc...
but i've never felt so empty...
my recent disappointment made 'hope' even more distant than before
they are but all - momentary happiness.
Once again, i'm being reminded that,
what truly matters to me are my family, friends, a free mind to paint, a free heart to appreciate what i still have in life.
Most importantly, i wanted a growing faith.
i hope my family and friends will understand
when in future i choose to do what i feel is the right thing to do....as i'm typing this, even i doubt my judgement on what is really 'right' after what had happened.
i may be poorer
i may seemed intellectually less competent compared to what i'm still doing now or what i've done in the past.
but i will not mind, if my family and close friends understand and still accept me in whatever situation i'm in.
How very true...it is not simple to be simple. it takes a lot to find that happiness is simplicity....