Thursday, August 31, 2006

don't run, for IF

Wherever there is a reaching down

into innermost experience,

into the nucleus of personality,

most people are overcome by fright

and many run away....

The risk of inner experience,

the adventure of the spirit

is in any case

alien to most human beings

carl jung

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Wednesday, August 30, 2006

for Velu

To velu my friend, whose tag I've accepted....here goes......
I am thinking about:
how lucky most of us are to be where we are right now…to be able to breathe, to be able to talk, to be able to walk, to be able to think……to be able to see….and mostly, to be able to earn a living in an environment that enables you to do so, to be able to help others who have not been as lucky as us………I am thinking about…..how difficult it is to be simple……
I said:
I will, then I will……but if I say I won’t, then, I might!
I want to:
illustrate and write my own books for the children someday (especially those in need, abused, orphaned, handicapped)…to sprinkle some magic, to make them feel hopeful, to make them feel loved, that passion is more important than skills, to touch their hearts so, so that one day, they’ll grow up wanting to spread this magical feeling in them to others…..I want to spread love through art!
I wish:
I know the best way to comfort a friend who’s going through a very tough time right now….
I wonder:
when will I ever get the chance to visit Moscow…
I regret:
that I wasn’t as expressive when I was younger as I am right now….that I didn’t say those words that I should have said years ago…
I hear:
things! (Gosh! Velu, this is the hardest!)
I am:
woman (Hear Me Roar! Ha! ha!)
I dance:
to the tune: My Baby Just Cares For Me by Nina Simone – you’ll never be able to resist that intro! Believe me! Do, please do search for this song and enjoy it if you haven’t.
I sing:
when I’m driving! I have attracted loads of attention from other drivers, you know! Hey, whatcha lookin at? Ha! Ha! I sing when I shower as well! Poor neighbors, at least the drivers can’t hear me
I cry:
when I’m emotionally hurt, when the people I care hurt….
I am not:
good in cooking. Back home, whenever I cook, to relief my mom a bit, my papa will say: “oh…stance, you’re cooking? Err…just try not to burn them all!” Seriously…somehow, no matter how hard I try, at least one dish will be overcooked, if not burnt! Very rarely will my cooking looks edible!
I make with my hands:
some mess in the kitchen, so much so, I think they are apt to be called: UFOs (unidentifiable fried objects!)
I write:
very well in the early morning…..about 4am….I write even better, when I have a steaming hot cup of coffee in the other hand!
I confuse:
people around me……I’m a Confucious’ follower…..I am ‘The Confuser’……
I need:
2 lipsticks with different colours. I feel shy to admit that I’m never satisfied with just one colour. I have to mix!
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favourite words from books I read:
(I'm not putting quotes as there are many good quotes that are easily accessible. So, I would like to share some paras from good books, which cannot be found on the net unless it's already in E-book form)
I have now learned that it is only in appearance that they are kept alive through care for themselves, but that in reality they are kept alive through love. He who dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him, for God is love.
“Siom!” “Ha?” “We are always giving; why doesn’t someone give to us?”
(Extracted from What Men Live By by Leo Tolstoy)
“Why do you tremble at me alone?” cried he, turning his veiled face round the circle of pale spectators. “Tremble also at each other! Have men avoided me, and man shown no pity, and children screamed and fled, only for my black veil? What has made this piece of crape so awful? When the friend shows his inmost heart to his friend, the lover to his best beloved; when man does not shrink from the eye of this Creator, loathsomely treasuring up the secret of his sin; then deem me a monster, for the symbol beneath which I have lived, and die! I look around me, and, lo! On every visage – a Black Veil!”
(from The Minister’s Black Veil by Nathaniel Hawthorne)

Saturday, August 26, 2006

Conversational Pieces


3 few minutes pen sketches, coloured in Photoshop, just to share with you before I go off for the weekend....
At first, I named these: Stressful illos, as I sketched them while having very tense conversations with my printer on different days, discussing about the printing of my company's annual report....
But perhaps....I should rename them: 'conversational' pieces? ha!ha!.... sigh.....
You have a good weekend!

Monday, August 21, 2006

Black Match for IF

I sketched this with a pen while going through some details of a project with a printer this morning....
After putting down the phone, I had a second look at it and decided to scan and colour it in photoshop later....well, what I finally did was filling up the dress in black, took out some other scribblings around the illos as they contain 'office' matters, and other stuff...
It's been a rather black monday for most of us in the office today....everyone was quite moody....even my 'partner-in-crime', he was very quiet....I guess, we've all had a very tiring weekend....and the weather wasn't that sunny as well....
I guess, this is a matching 'black' illustration for such a black monday....
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I'm sorry, but I really thought that the 2nd illo I did was going to be my last one for this week's topic....
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Saturday, August 19, 2006

Match 2 for IF

Oh Bernard darling, I wish we've ordered the other wine
instead of this...
It just doesn't go well with our dinner.
And the steak is just not done to my taste either...
I've ordered well done, but look at this,
it's too raw...
Bernard darling, let's go somewhere else...
How about The Quartz over at 6th Avenue?
Come on, let's go. I can't continue eating what's on my plate, really.
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ah...how important it is to find a matching wine to go with your food.....
while somebody out there is dying of hunger.....
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The Perfect Match? IF


somebody once said:
so long as you both are heading towards the same direction,
have the same purpose in life...
that's your perfect match....
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....I wish that it's as simple as that...
but most beginnings are as simple as this:
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someday
we are going to be lovers,
maybe married,
at the very least,
an affair....
what's your name?
(From my favourite book HTSTLOAL)
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Thursday, August 17, 2006

When I think of.....


When I listen to Pu Shu, I think of San Mau (a writer),
when I think of San Mau, I think of Enya,
when I think of Enya, I think of Marble Halls....
and when I think of Marble Halls....I think of.........
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Marble Halls - my favourite by Enya
I dreamt I dwelt in Marble Halls, with vessels and serfs at my side,
and of all who assembled within those walls, that I was the hope and the pride,
I had riches all too great to count, and a high ancestral name....
but I also dreamt which pleased me most,
that you love me still the same...
that you love me, you love me still the same.........
I dreamt that suitors sought my hand, that knights upon bended knee,
and with vows no maiden's heart could withstand,
they pledged their faith to me
and I dreamt that one of the noble host came forth my hand to claim...
but I also dreamt which charmed me most,
that you love me still the same,
that you love me, you love me still the same..........

Monday, August 14, 2006

Play for IF


When I was a little girl, instead of listening to the radio or cassette tape....
I have LIVE singing by my brother, just next to my bed!
He'll play the guitar and sing.....till I sleep.....
ah...I was a lucky little girl!
Sometimes, it's flamenco, sometimes it's classical, sometimes, it's pop....
whatever genre...whatever song...
it was just for me!

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Shaun Tan.....





Been thinking a lot lately...partly of my career, partly personal matters....
so I decided to go for a walk at KLCC after work, although driving there from the office is always crazy...
I went straight to PAGE ONE in KINOKUNIYA, to see if my postcards are still there....if there are any purchasers so far....
there were none left....I think I'll call the manager tommorow morning to check it out...I'll try not to assume anything....
And then I went to the children's section, as usual, to re-motivate myself, be re-inspired by all the great illustrators again, to pick myself up again...and I saw this book - The Lost Thing by Shaun Tan....and here I am now, writing this with the book beside me at home...when what I actually needed was a new lipstick.....some other day....some other day.....things like that can wait....
This is actually my second Shaun Tan book. I bought my first - The Red Tree almost 2 years ago........Do have a look at some of his works HERE.....
I think I'll go to bed early tonight....
but before I do...
here's something I'd like to share with you...
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The cosmic dance
to celestial melodies
free form within patterns
of precise limitations
the painting i know so well
the canvas i want to learn
and perhaps someday....
the artist....
(From : How To Survive The Loss of A Love)

Saturday, August 05, 2006

Capture for IF

This is Bernard.
Bernard is reading a notice ad for a heart to be captured....the reward is everlasting love....
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A quickie....as you can see....not quite me...but this is what you'd get out of me....when I draw before three......
silly me....

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

cleaning my mind




Dear God,

Here I am.
I cannot believe it.
But getting use to it.
Staying alone
Finally
After all these years
After all the hesitations
After all my fears
Yet God
Here I am
With your blessings
With your approval
I am now here.

Thank you God
I am most grateful
Though you know I am scared
You know too that I needed this
I really hope
That you’ll always guide me
To make full use of this space that I’ve been given
Let me be of use
To those who are in need
God,
Help me to be disciplined
Wake me up when I am lazy
Help me when I have no ideas
Let my ideas be of help to others
In any way that you could arrange

God,
Please help me
Not to fail my parents
Not to fail myself
And most of all
Not to fail you……

Let me be of service to others, let me reach out to others
Through art, God, if that is also thy will……

Always with me, that I know
Also let me be with you….I pray, I will always be so….
constance wong
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This illo and conversation with God was done just a few weeks after I've moved to my own place around mid of Dec 05....it was done because I was feeling scared and excited at the same time....I was unsure of my future...I didn't know what to expect....if I could cope....if it was right of me to do so at all...I moved out for many reasons...I was in need of calm at that time and did this to clear my mind....to me this is another form of cleansing...

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Chris Lam's Photography....





I can't help it but to show off a bit of my friend's photography works. Chris Lam's a very unique person with a very creative mind and a very beautiful soul....she captures beauty both outside and inside - more that glows from the inside.....see for yourself!