Saturday, December 30, 2006

The Last Piece for 2006....


My last piece for the year.....

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

I'm back :)

Hello! I've been away and had only a few mintues on some days to be near a computer! Anyway, I've been really busy helping my parents pack and move in to their new house! So now, I'm quite good at it :D Need packers or movers anybody? :D
I've been tagged by one of my favourite illustrator - Majeak Ann (Marjorie)!!!!! Oh, I really love her works as they are very magically beautiful and inspiring! Do visit her website if you haven't and I'm sure you'll agree with me!
Ok, Marjorie, here goes:
4 Jobs I’ve had:
1. A 'telephone operator' for a night for a one time call-in contest in an agency when I was 14.
2. Confidential/Private Secretary (I still cannot believe I wore those short skirts and high heels!!!!!)
3. English Conversation Teacher in a language centre to a group of 15 year old teenagers.
4. Public Relations Executive
4 movies I could watch over and over:
1. Forest Gump
2. Summer Snow (Nui Yan 40 - in cantonese) This is a very inspiring and realistic movie that I watched many years ago about how a middle aged woman handles the challenges in her life, at work and especially the family, how she took care of her father in law who's suffering from Alzheimer’s disease....
3. Red Rose and White Rose - (Hong Mei Gui Bai Mei Gui - in mandarin) A movie set in the olden times in china of a man who fell in love with 2 women.....I'm against extra marital affairs but I love this movie for the settings, the mood...
4. Any Old Bottles To Sell? (The translation from a chinese dialect title - movie in mandarin) - A story of a poor mute man who collects old bottles to sell/recycle....about how he raised and loved an adopted girl just like his own daughter.....who became a very famous singer....I cried the most watching this movie....(I'm afraid I can't find the link to this movie at all......)
4 places I’ve lived in:
Oh dear.....I've never lived anywhere else (for a long period of time, i.e.) besides Kuala Lumpur, and few days every year in Penang (4 hours' drive from Kuala Lumpur)
4 TV shows I love or loved:
1. LOST (recent)
3. Samurai Jack! (Yup! I love the colours and animation style of this)
4. Family Ties
4 places I’ve vacationed:
.....I would really really love to visit other countries, especially Russia, Moscow....but unfortunately I have a very bad 'moving height' phobia ! I'm trying to overcome my fear and hopefully, I'll be able to fly once again....my first was to Kuching, Sarawak - East of Malaysia

4 websites I visit daily
1. Drawn!
3. The Star Online (Online newspaper in Malaysia)
4. Random websites and blogs of wonderful illustrators!
4 of my favorite dishes:
1. Plain Smoked Salmon!
2. Chicken Pie (from DOME)
3. Curry Chicken
4. Chicken or Tiger Prawns cooked with wine!
Can I add in more? :D I do love raw oysters and cooked escargots with cheese too! I love to eat!
4 places I would rather be:
1. in the country of a great painter, being guided personally by him/her
2. Moscow, Russia....
3. Kuching again (if I could overcome the fear of flying).....for some reasons....
4. Back to the 20's or 30's in Shanghai, China or Japan...

Sunday, December 17, 2006

Blessed Christmas to you....



I seriously don't have much time for myself lately
and hence these 2 oldies...
(the boy illo was done some years ago! and the girl with wine, another quick sketch a few weeks ago....)
but I really wanted to wish you all now
as I think
I won't be able to post anything
untill after Christmas....
so, I digged for something 'cheery'
to wish all of you
A BLESSED CHRISTMAS
not just a 'presents exchange' one,
but also a meaningful and beautiful one.....

Saturday, December 09, 2006

A drink for nothing......


an old watercolour work (early this year or was it december 2005?.....) Time passes so fast......

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

2 Dogs and A Woman



My very 'spoilt' Oxford!
He's really fat now :D
Everytime when I go back to my parents'
he and 'skinny' will be jumping all around me,
and oxford, because he's so short,
will hop up and down
and starts looking for a ball or something
to 'invite' me to play 'catch-me-if-you-can'
Together with Skinny, we'll run around the car porch and
try our very best to 'catch' Oxford and get the ball from him!
It's almost like a 'car porch ritual'!
Hmmm....and I wonder why the neighbours are staring?....
.........
(Looking at my dogs' pix always puts a smile back onto my face...so I thought, I'd share this with you all and put the smile on your face too :) )

Sunday, December 03, 2006

All my might for what I love....



Sometimes,
illustrating just for the love of it
is getting harder each day....
with so many things to attend to
in many areas...
but
no matter how tired
or unhappy I am
when I get to illustrate...
I'll wake up the next day
feeling lighter and with a renewed hope.....
and the past 2 weeks have been quite taxing for me....
so,
with all my might....
with some 'stolen' free time,
I illustrated the above......
and after sharing this piece...
I know I'll be able to work better tomorrow...

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

A sketch that turns out to be....


just a sketch in a corner that happens to be.....
(pen, AI and Photoshop....wish I could paint but I doubt if I could produce anything in acrylic this week...)

Sunday, November 19, 2006

White Rose....


The White Rose
(pencil, coloured in AI and Photoshop)

Monday, November 13, 2006

Quest for a Clear Mind

This is a very very old watercolour and pen work of mine.....
It was done, immediately after waking up from a dream some years ago....
It was a dream of directions,
of the consequences of letting go....
of hoping to get clearer directions,
specific directions
in life....
Maybe, I've reached another junction of my life lately,
that requires me to stop
to think and pray.....
hoping
that He will say
My child,
choose this way.....
for this is the right way
accept it,
and you'll not go astray.....

Monday, November 06, 2006

Smoking girl for IF



It's an acrylic painting of mine which I've posted a few posts ago, but not for IF.....but as it's very suitable for this week's topic, I thought maybe I'll share this with you all in IF....
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Thursday, November 02, 2006

Chiho Makino - a Japanese Illustrator



if you've never seen her works before......
come and have a look HERE
I came accross Chiho Makino's site about 2 years ago,
but I have shamefully forgotten about it, until few months ago....
her works, to me, are really dreamy, very 'feathery', very tranquil, silent.....magical....
an artist like her should have uncountable mentions in other sites.....

Monday, October 30, 2006

The Browless Geisha....an experiment....


The browless geisha
............
(my 7th acrylic painting.....an experiment.....as I was wondering how to paint an already painted face, how to highlight whites? what is the best shade/shadow colour for a white-painted face, such as a geisha's? How to show that the lips are partly hidden by the white make up and that it's only painted red in the centre?.........)

Friday, October 27, 2006

Windy in IF


One breezy late afternoon....
she decided to smile....
just like her single golden earring......
she wants to shine
once again......
........
(acrylic and a little bit of pastels on canvas textured paper)

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

smoking lady....for nothing...




so...it's back to work tommorrow....after almost a week's break....

but I only have this afternoon to myself....to practise a bit...

so here goes...my only acrylic painting after so many days...

(acrylic and pastels for the background on canvas textured paper)

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

solitude....for nothing



We don't always feel lonely when we're alone,
sometimes,
it hurts even more
to be surrounded
by so many people
and still feel lonely....
we are very unique, aren't we?........
(digital and pencil)

Monday, October 16, 2006

smittened by Moi Moi


I thought maybe I should share this acrylic painting i did on the 27th of Sept.....this is actually my 2nd acrylic painting (I've posted my 3rd and 4th)....for the face reminded me of my cousin's daughter - Moi Moi. They were back for a short holiday from Australia and it was my first time meeting Moi Moi. She's such an adorable 3 year old girl! And very bright too! My cousin shared that once somebody said to Moi Moi that she's a preety little girl and this was Moi Moi's answer: I'm not preety. I'm Gorgeous! :D

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Smittened for IF

He was at first smittened by her beauty outside.....
Now he is truly in love....
for the beauty inside....
Now...they are both in love......
Takeshi Tanaka is finally in love!
He's in love with Mei Ling!
(acrylic on canvas textured paper, scanned instead of photographed....)
my 4th try with acrylic.....

Thursday, October 12, 2006

more for nothing......



more pencil sketches....coloured in AI.......
need to experiment more before I paint this weekend.....if I could....

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

For nothing....

I'm going to paint something this weekend...wanted to paint only when I'm in my best condition, to not waste the colours/canvases....the image is already in my head.....
meanwhile, just to share, a pencil sketch coloured in AI......
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on a totally different matter....
The following made me laughed so much last night that it hurts, here goes:
Pushkin had four sons, all idiots. One didn't even know how to sit on a chair and fell off all the time. Pushkin himself also sat on a chair rather badly. It was simply killing: they sat at the table; at one end, Pushkin kept falling off his chair continually, and at the other end, his son. Simply enough to make one split one's sides with laughter.
From: Anecdotes about Pushkin's Life by Russian writer Daniil Kharms (1905-1942)
I mean...is that possible? that sitting require skills?!!!! How can a person sit 'badly'?!! ha! ha!

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Troubled for IF


mama...mama.......mama...........
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it's been on my mind
since I read about this little boy,
who was abused to death.....
who was left with the dog....who urinated all over him...
who was beaten by the mother's boyfriend....
who was thrown....
who was neglected....
left alone......
who was not loved......
who died........
who died......
who died......
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Saturday, October 07, 2006

Trouble for IF


i was cracking my head in the office, trying to come up with a 'practical,cheap, safe, politically correct design for the company's 2007 calendar.....frankly, it looked the same for many years already....as it's a corporate company....the designers are not allowed to design things that are too 'creative'.......in the beginning, when we first joined, we've proposed many that we find really good and yet corporate enough....but all have been rejected....and we were asked to design (or i'd rather not say 'design', maybe 'following orders' is more like it) something similar to previous year's...... I'm quite sad about this...but I've been paid to design what they want....not what I want......at least, I'm aware of this fact.......but in terms of creativity...............I have nothing else to say.........it's really frustrating....
...and so, as I was cracking my head for the calendar, the pen sketch above appeared at the corner of my 'drafting' paper.......and by the end of the day, I went home without a calendar design, but with the above girl contemplating at her desk........hmmmm.....i'd better try again next week, or i'd be in trouble.......
I'll be driving my parents to the beach after work and will only be back the next day...so I don't really have much time to paint this one in acrylic....
(black ball point pen on draft paper, coloured in AI.....yes, AI, not Photoshop....)

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

quiet for IF

...........
(acrylic on canvas textured paper)

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

See you soon.....



Been sketching a lot lately.....
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Maybe it's time
for me to take a break
Maybe it's time
for me to re-evaluate....
Maybe it's time
to say goodbye, for a short while,
and till we meet again
in this sphere,
all of you that I so appreciate.....
constance wong
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Saturday, September 02, 2006

Safe.....


This is a picture of Tanya...
It was taken many years ago...
She looking inside from out there....
at her beloved in there....
She was in love...
she was happy....
she was safe....
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I remember
when we were sweethearts,
I was safe with you,
you're my protector.....
those days are over
now I need someone
someone to keep me safe from you...
love was all we had...
we were young and sure
but who'd expect that love
will turn to war...
I don't know who
to pity more.....
(part of Mary Black's song, that kept playing in my mind when I read this week's topic...)

Thursday, August 31, 2006

don't run, for IF

Wherever there is a reaching down

into innermost experience,

into the nucleus of personality,

most people are overcome by fright

and many run away....

The risk of inner experience,

the adventure of the spirit

is in any case

alien to most human beings

carl jung

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Wednesday, August 30, 2006

for Velu

To velu my friend, whose tag I've accepted....here goes......
I am thinking about:
how lucky most of us are to be where we are right now…to be able to breathe, to be able to talk, to be able to walk, to be able to think……to be able to see….and mostly, to be able to earn a living in an environment that enables you to do so, to be able to help others who have not been as lucky as us………I am thinking about…..how difficult it is to be simple……
I said:
I will, then I will……but if I say I won’t, then, I might!
I want to:
illustrate and write my own books for the children someday (especially those in need, abused, orphaned, handicapped)…to sprinkle some magic, to make them feel hopeful, to make them feel loved, that passion is more important than skills, to touch their hearts so, so that one day, they’ll grow up wanting to spread this magical feeling in them to others…..I want to spread love through art!
I wish:
I know the best way to comfort a friend who’s going through a very tough time right now….
I wonder:
when will I ever get the chance to visit Moscow…
I regret:
that I wasn’t as expressive when I was younger as I am right now….that I didn’t say those words that I should have said years ago…
I hear:
things! (Gosh! Velu, this is the hardest!)
I am:
woman (Hear Me Roar! Ha! ha!)
I dance:
to the tune: My Baby Just Cares For Me by Nina Simone – you’ll never be able to resist that intro! Believe me! Do, please do search for this song and enjoy it if you haven’t.
I sing:
when I’m driving! I have attracted loads of attention from other drivers, you know! Hey, whatcha lookin at? Ha! Ha! I sing when I shower as well! Poor neighbors, at least the drivers can’t hear me
I cry:
when I’m emotionally hurt, when the people I care hurt….
I am not:
good in cooking. Back home, whenever I cook, to relief my mom a bit, my papa will say: “oh…stance, you’re cooking? Err…just try not to burn them all!” Seriously…somehow, no matter how hard I try, at least one dish will be overcooked, if not burnt! Very rarely will my cooking looks edible!
I make with my hands:
some mess in the kitchen, so much so, I think they are apt to be called: UFOs (unidentifiable fried objects!)
I write:
very well in the early morning…..about 4am….I write even better, when I have a steaming hot cup of coffee in the other hand!
I confuse:
people around me……I’m a Confucious’ follower…..I am ‘The Confuser’……
I need:
2 lipsticks with different colours. I feel shy to admit that I’m never satisfied with just one colour. I have to mix!
………………..
favourite words from books I read:
(I'm not putting quotes as there are many good quotes that are easily accessible. So, I would like to share some paras from good books, which cannot be found on the net unless it's already in E-book form)
I have now learned that it is only in appearance that they are kept alive through care for themselves, but that in reality they are kept alive through love. He who dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him, for God is love.
“Siom!” “Ha?” “We are always giving; why doesn’t someone give to us?”
(Extracted from What Men Live By by Leo Tolstoy)
“Why do you tremble at me alone?” cried he, turning his veiled face round the circle of pale spectators. “Tremble also at each other! Have men avoided me, and man shown no pity, and children screamed and fled, only for my black veil? What has made this piece of crape so awful? When the friend shows his inmost heart to his friend, the lover to his best beloved; when man does not shrink from the eye of this Creator, loathsomely treasuring up the secret of his sin; then deem me a monster, for the symbol beneath which I have lived, and die! I look around me, and, lo! On every visage – a Black Veil!”
(from The Minister’s Black Veil by Nathaniel Hawthorne)

Saturday, August 26, 2006

Conversational Pieces


3 few minutes pen sketches, coloured in Photoshop, just to share with you before I go off for the weekend....
At first, I named these: Stressful illos, as I sketched them while having very tense conversations with my printer on different days, discussing about the printing of my company's annual report....
But perhaps....I should rename them: 'conversational' pieces? ha!ha!.... sigh.....
You have a good weekend!

Monday, August 21, 2006

Black Match for IF

I sketched this with a pen while going through some details of a project with a printer this morning....
After putting down the phone, I had a second look at it and decided to scan and colour it in photoshop later....well, what I finally did was filling up the dress in black, took out some other scribblings around the illos as they contain 'office' matters, and other stuff...
It's been a rather black monday for most of us in the office today....everyone was quite moody....even my 'partner-in-crime', he was very quiet....I guess, we've all had a very tiring weekend....and the weather wasn't that sunny as well....
I guess, this is a matching 'black' illustration for such a black monday....
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I'm sorry, but I really thought that the 2nd illo I did was going to be my last one for this week's topic....
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Saturday, August 19, 2006

Match 2 for IF

Oh Bernard darling, I wish we've ordered the other wine
instead of this...
It just doesn't go well with our dinner.
And the steak is just not done to my taste either...
I've ordered well done, but look at this,
it's too raw...
Bernard darling, let's go somewhere else...
How about The Quartz over at 6th Avenue?
Come on, let's go. I can't continue eating what's on my plate, really.
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ah...how important it is to find a matching wine to go with your food.....
while somebody out there is dying of hunger.....
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The Perfect Match? IF


somebody once said:
so long as you both are heading towards the same direction,
have the same purpose in life...
that's your perfect match....
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....I wish that it's as simple as that...
but most beginnings are as simple as this:
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someday
we are going to be lovers,
maybe married,
at the very least,
an affair....
what's your name?
(From my favourite book HTSTLOAL)
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Thursday, August 17, 2006

When I think of.....


When I listen to Pu Shu, I think of San Mau (a writer),
when I think of San Mau, I think of Enya,
when I think of Enya, I think of Marble Halls....
and when I think of Marble Halls....I think of.........
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Marble Halls - my favourite by Enya
I dreamt I dwelt in Marble Halls, with vessels and serfs at my side,
and of all who assembled within those walls, that I was the hope and the pride,
I had riches all too great to count, and a high ancestral name....
but I also dreamt which pleased me most,
that you love me still the same...
that you love me, you love me still the same.........
I dreamt that suitors sought my hand, that knights upon bended knee,
and with vows no maiden's heart could withstand,
they pledged their faith to me
and I dreamt that one of the noble host came forth my hand to claim...
but I also dreamt which charmed me most,
that you love me still the same,
that you love me, you love me still the same..........

Monday, August 14, 2006

Play for IF


When I was a little girl, instead of listening to the radio or cassette tape....
I have LIVE singing by my brother, just next to my bed!
He'll play the guitar and sing.....till I sleep.....
ah...I was a lucky little girl!
Sometimes, it's flamenco, sometimes it's classical, sometimes, it's pop....
whatever genre...whatever song...
it was just for me!

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Shaun Tan.....





Been thinking a lot lately...partly of my career, partly personal matters....
so I decided to go for a walk at KLCC after work, although driving there from the office is always crazy...
I went straight to PAGE ONE in KINOKUNIYA, to see if my postcards are still there....if there are any purchasers so far....
there were none left....I think I'll call the manager tommorow morning to check it out...I'll try not to assume anything....
And then I went to the children's section, as usual, to re-motivate myself, be re-inspired by all the great illustrators again, to pick myself up again...and I saw this book - The Lost Thing by Shaun Tan....and here I am now, writing this with the book beside me at home...when what I actually needed was a new lipstick.....some other day....some other day.....things like that can wait....
This is actually my second Shaun Tan book. I bought my first - The Red Tree almost 2 years ago........Do have a look at some of his works HERE.....
I think I'll go to bed early tonight....
but before I do...
here's something I'd like to share with you...
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The cosmic dance
to celestial melodies
free form within patterns
of precise limitations
the painting i know so well
the canvas i want to learn
and perhaps someday....
the artist....
(From : How To Survive The Loss of A Love)

Saturday, August 05, 2006

Capture for IF

This is Bernard.
Bernard is reading a notice ad for a heart to be captured....the reward is everlasting love....
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A quickie....as you can see....not quite me...but this is what you'd get out of me....when I draw before three......
silly me....

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

cleaning my mind




Dear God,

Here I am.
I cannot believe it.
But getting use to it.
Staying alone
Finally
After all these years
After all the hesitations
After all my fears
Yet God
Here I am
With your blessings
With your approval
I am now here.

Thank you God
I am most grateful
Though you know I am scared
You know too that I needed this
I really hope
That you’ll always guide me
To make full use of this space that I’ve been given
Let me be of use
To those who are in need
God,
Help me to be disciplined
Wake me up when I am lazy
Help me when I have no ideas
Let my ideas be of help to others
In any way that you could arrange

God,
Please help me
Not to fail my parents
Not to fail myself
And most of all
Not to fail you……

Let me be of service to others, let me reach out to others
Through art, God, if that is also thy will……

Always with me, that I know
Also let me be with you….I pray, I will always be so….
constance wong
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This illo and conversation with God was done just a few weeks after I've moved to my own place around mid of Dec 05....it was done because I was feeling scared and excited at the same time....I was unsure of my future...I didn't know what to expect....if I could cope....if it was right of me to do so at all...I moved out for many reasons...I was in need of calm at that time and did this to clear my mind....to me this is another form of cleansing...

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Chris Lam's Photography....





I can't help it but to show off a bit of my friend's photography works. Chris Lam's a very unique person with a very creative mind and a very beautiful soul....she captures beauty both outside and inside - more that glows from the inside.....see for yourself!

Saturday, July 29, 2006

Clean? Again? for IF


yeah..I know...this is my SECOND POST for the same topic - on the SAME DAY....
It was supposed to be a very eventful afternoon and evening, but due to some unforeseen circumstances, here I am, writing away some of my blues! (well, lucky for my neighbours - at least I'm not singing!)
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which reminded me of this watercolour & pen painting I did sometime ago (also one of my postcard series)
I remember why I did this, but this time, I will not disclose it here...
...only, it's got a lot to do with emotional cleansing - hence, a suitable post for this week's topic.
As I'm badly in need of some humour here, and there's nobody around to humour me at the moment, I'll do it myself.
Ready?
Try to imagine this -
I'm singing, ever so loudly, ever so "out-of-tune-ly",
and there's this neighbour, a few doors away,
praying fervently, that I will stop singing (or rather, croaking),
praying that if I really stop, he'll start doing charity, donate cash and kinds to the needy,
pray six times a day, drive politely,
and try his best never again condemn any of the American Idol contestants, the bad ones especially.....
Hmm...perhaps, I should really stop writing and start singing here, I might be able to save some souls here! :D
sigh.....